ok, so now i'm starting to feel like i'm sorta moving in the correct direction... i was able to register for the four classes i wanted next semester. i am going to be taking a full load this coming semester, as i mentioned in the past, in order to be finished with my degree in august. i hope i don't get fucked over on the audit (which is always a possibility). i really just want to be done.
i know there will most likely be a lot more bitching and moaning about how much i hate it here, until i manage to complete what i'm working on. hell, i can't stand the thought that THIS semester isn't over yet. i hope i don't drive EVERYONE nuts till i have my life back, but i'm pretty sure i will. so feel free to kick my ass whenever you think i should shut up or what have you.
*sigh*
Posted by
Dina on 11.29.05 @ 03:34 PM EEST :: [link]
so tell me...
music: dubstar - stars mood: good morning
why is it that i have a thing for israeli boys?
is this just another symptom of everything else i've been going through?
Posted by
Dina on 11.29.05 @ 07:25 AM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, November 27th
unbe-fucking-lievable
music: nothing mood: can we say crap?
my move managed to distract me from myself for exactly one week. now i'm right back where i was before i decided to leave the island - alone and depressed. wow! it's become painfully obvious that this is a serious situation. i think it's been about two years since i've been really happy with anything in my life. these days all i can manage is to go to work, go to school (and that's just cuz i have to) or sit right here. i don't have any desire to go out, i don't even have the desire to go see anyone at their house. seriously, unless you're coming here chances are you're never really going to see me again.
i hate this city. i hate the scene i was once a part of. i hate that i have to work. i hate school.
NOTHING makes me happy. wonderful.
Posted by
Dina on 11.27.05 @ 06:41 PM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, November 26th
and now brooklyn
music: absurd minds - electropulse mood: waking up
if i thought that living in manhattan was making me lazy, i had no idea what was coming here in brooklyn. LOL. i've been living here for almost a week and i've had zero desire to go anywhere. now that i have room to move around in my apartment, a perfectly warm place to be and a friend who lives in the building, i don't wish to walk out in to the freezing weather. not to mention that if i did want to go out and get drunk somewhere, there is a cool looking bar right around the corner. all i wanna do all day is either sit here, in front of the tv or occasionally do some homework.
good luck getting me to go anywhere. ever. hehe.
and for those i promised some apartment photos, here are a few =)
Posted by
Dina on 11.26.05 @ 09:21 AM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, November 22nd
the saga
music: nothing mood: tired
well then...
saturday evening, i actually headed out to see some people for rob's birthday. it was a needed change due to the fact that i haven't been out in a social setting since i was in israel. lol.
the following morning i was up at 6am since my movers were supposed to arrive between 8-10am. i had to wake up with enough time to take my bed apart and pack the very last few things. i was done by 7:30 and then was sitting around texting people in another time zone and playing tetris on my phone (haha!). the move went relatively quickly and we were done by about 12:30. i think it took three hours. i walked around the corner from my new apartment to the dollar store for cleaning products and ended up buying a tv stand as well. once i was back in the apartment, it was nine solid hours of unpacking and running around. i hadn't eaten the whole day, when finally, at 9:30pm bareket had to basically tear me away from my boxes and my mess in order to go get some food. we went to a really cool middle eastern place, but since i hadn't eaten the whole day, i was able to eat very little. a friend of bareket's came over to switch one of my locks (the one that the super and probably a zillion other people had the key to) and to hang out a bit. it was nice, but i hate sitting in a mess. LOL. needless to say that i passed out immediately upon their departure.
i was fast asleep when my crappy refrigerator decided to start making the horrible noise it like to make and that was just before my extremely loud radiator started hissing as well. no more sleep for dina.
the next morning i got up in time for work and was here for a few hours, when i had to go home to wait for cable guy to come. he actually showed up in the first half of the time slot they gave me. this made me happy, since i was supposed to run out at some point to meet mike for more moving purposes. i swear that guy stepped in shit or something cuz my house smelled like trash the whole time he was there. ugh! the second he left i opened all of the windows and sprayed fabreeze everywhere! gross. in the mean time, my land lord showed up to see about the leaky toilet and the noisy radiator and fridge. the radiator was fixed (as i found out last night cuz i was able to sleep through its outbursts), the toilet was made even leakier and it was decided that the fridge was going to be replaced. oy.
at this point i had to run out of the house anyway - it was truck rental time. i met up with mike at the port authority, and we headed over to pick up a 10ft cargo van. the first stop i had to make was in queens. kristen was giving me a black leather love seat (slightly worn by her cats =P) and a black table. we found our way there, mostly without any trouble and then we were headed over to crystal's, who is all the way out in bensonherst, brooklyn. we got lost several times on the way there, but finally made it. we said hi to crystal, had some popcorn (the first thing i had eaten all day), got some instructions on how to get back to my house, and were on our way again. this was when i called aaron. he was supposed to come by to help mike up the stairs with the three items we collected. he arrived slightly after we did, so we first sat around preparing mentally for the task ahead. hehe. let it be said that mike and aaron totally rock! they dragged those items in the rain and up four flights of stairs. yes. they rock. after a cold drink was consumed, we headed back into the city for van returning purposes. by the time we got there, it had been a total of six hours - pick up to drop off. jeez. there was no way i was taking the subway back home. cab it was. once again, i slept like a fucking rock. i closed the door and pretended the fridge didn't exist and, as mentioned, the radiator was a lot friendlier =)
this morning - first thing, the super was in my apartment to fix the leakiness in my bathroom. good. two issues down and two more to go.
today i have class after work. needless to say i'd much rather go home and continue my unpacking and rearranging. i have so much left! remind me again how the hell all of this shit fit into ONE room?!? once everything is in place i'm going to have some serious cleaning to do. i keep on trying to clean, but then every time i do that - something/someone goes and drags dirt in again. and that friend should be coming by again to fix my deadbolt. some people are just so sweet =)
Posted by
Dina on 11.22.05 @ 02:39 PM EEST :: [link]
Posted by
Dina on 11.19.05 @ 12:31 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, November 18th
a typical friday night
music: TV - law and order svu mood: ok
i really shouldn't be allowed to go to bed bath and beyond. ever. i ALWAYS end up buying more than i need. granted, this time i actually got stuff for my bathroom and the curtain rods i went in to get... but i also ended up getting a new set of curtains, which i did not need.
in other news, drinking wine out of a martini glass is amusing. no choice, i suppose - it's the only glass/cup i have left unpacked. lol.
Posted by
Dina on 11.18.05 @ 09:22 PM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, November 17th
move update
music: TV - american dad mood: clean =)
more progress in the new apartment.
my body hurts from all the crap i've been doing there and the weather is too cold.
tomorrow after work i will be doing homework and finish my packing.
i wish it was sunday.
Posted by
Dina on 11.17.05 @ 11:09 PM EEST :: [link]
wax on, wax off
music: office chatter mood: tired
yesterday was slightly on the hectic side... work was once again relatively productive and i ended up leaving closer to six o'clock, rather than five. once i was done, i headed out in the pouring rain over to meet with someone for a short while, and then it was on with the mad search for things to improve my apartment with. my first stop was home depot on 23rd street. i assumed that they'd have at least some of what i was looking for. i was in desperate search of a new medicine cabinet (the silver kind with a mirror on it) cuz the one that's there at the moment is slightly rusty and is a little too small for my taste. they didn't have that. then i was on to looking for black light switch plates. they didn't have that either (mind you, i looked on two floors where they had EVERYTHING but what i wanted). the last and most important thing i needed was vinyl floor tiling for my bathroom. the crap that was on the floor there was horrendous! i was looking for a cute/standard black and white checkered pattern. nope. none of that either. so it was on to k-mart. they can be surprising sometimes with there inventory, but they too were disappointing. finally, the only thing i could think of was going all the way uptown (near where i live now) to the one store that usually has everything i'm searching for and is open till a decent hour. there i found my vinyl tiling, a medicine cabinet (not what i was looking for but too cute not to buy) and a bunch of other odds and ends. i was done shopping at about 8:30pm and no, i didn't go back home - though it was tempting cuz i was about three blocks away. instead i hopped into a cab (no way i'm carrying all the crap i bought on the subway) and headed to brooklyn. bareket was there to greet me when i got there with a broom, hammer and screw driver in hand. she helped me up the stairs with the stuff and then ran off to watch something on TV. lol. while she was doing that, i was busy laying the vinyl tile on the bathroom floor. what a fucking pain in the ass. haha! i finished most of it last night, but i still have to touch some of it up and finish it off with silicon. bareket came back at some point and helped (well, mostly watched ;) me do a little cleaning. i was going to go home last night, but by the time we were done, it was about midnight and still pouring. it was just easier for me to crash with her.
today is going to look the same, more or less. i have a little less running around to do after work, but i do have a meeting to go to before i can head out to brooklyn again.
can someone tell me why didn't i remember to buy and exacto knife when i was in the hardware store earlier?
Posted by
Dina on 11.17.05 @ 03:26 PM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, November 15th
cat hair
music: pollyanna frank - ziva mood: no incredibly nostalgic!
this evening was actually quite amazing. in an odd sort of way... after a pretty productive day at work, i headed out to brooklyn to pick up my keys and see the paint job my landlord did on my new place. i must say, they did a decent job, though not in a color i would have chosen. it's an off-white-ish kind of color. i would have at least painted it white. i think they just happen to have lots of this particular color laying around since it's the color the building hallways are painted with in all four buildings (i'm moving into a four building complex).
so after bareket and i hung out in there for a bit, trying to figure out where i was going to put everything, we headed back to her apartment. we had some cheese and wine, while listening to some music that seriously made me cry. nostalgia can bring up some strong emotions for me... we listened to pollyanna frank, and i actually had tears in the corners of my eyes as we were singing along. we pulled out some other stuff i hadn't heard in years. we talked about a concert i saw long ago, just after uzi was killed - the obvious choice and ehud banai... i wish i was there - in israel. i wish i could just pick up the paper and see if and where any one of these artists was still performing. i had to remind myself that i was moving into the building in less than a week, so not to want to take half of her CD collection home with me tonight. heh.
anyway, she has two adorable cats. i am now covered in cat hair. and i should be going back there on wednesday to put down a new floor in the bathroom and switch a couple of things in there before i move in on sunday.
in other news - i should probably try and remember that walking in my cowboy boots is probably not such a good idea.
Posted by
Dina on 11.15.05 @ 12:05 AM EEST :: [link]
Friday, November 11th
decisions decisions
music: paul oakenfold mood: is it five o'clock yet?
i've been seriously debating going to byte on sunday. it used to be the only party i looked forward to, but now it feels just like the rest of the fetish parties i try to avoid. another thing i was considering (though i don't think i will be doing) is paul van dyke at the roxy tonight. i would really like to go but i have too much to do. i need to finish my homework, buy some stuff for my new apartment, pack some more and unload some more of my toys with another one of my friends.
*sigh*
i hope that if i decide to go sunday night, i will not be bored out of my mind... because i honestly don't plan on drinking.
Posted by
Dina on 11.11.05 @ 03:40 PM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, November 10th
it's the little things
music: some crap dani's playing mood: ok
dani just fed me cheese burekas for breakfast. this is something i don't get to consume very often, cuz i'm way too lazy to go out of my way to get it. this made both my face and my taste-buds smile.
i hate feeling this torn. i really wanna be in israel for a while. i doubt i'm going to want to stay there for too long, but a few weeks or perhaps a couple of months would do me just fine. it's something that's just in my blood, and it doesn't matter how far away from it i try to run, i can never get away from it.
i need my friends, the food, and just the feel i get on the tel-avivian streets.
does anyone have a time machine?
Posted by
Dina on 11.10.05 @ 10:20 AM EEST :: [link]
Wednesday, November 9th
tonight
music: TV stuffs mood: cozy
crystal and ed ed came over earlier to pick up some of the stuff i wanted to unload, and then we headed over to BBQ's for f00ds and drinks. i'm not sure what it is about their drinks but i can never consume too much of them... it's not that i get drunk off of them, far from it. it's almost like i get heartburn. bah! anyway, seeing them and panos was nice for a bit.
on my way home, i swear i smelled pot not once, but twice. once in a while, i'm used to, but TWICE in an eight block span?? LOL! anyway, i do love that smell. hehe. yes... it brings back some seriously funny memories and it makes me all nostalgic (yes, i know i'm weird) =P
*sigh* i miss so many of my friends in israel. i guess i just can't win.
Posted by
Dina on 11.09.05 @ 10:40 PM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, November 8th
packing
music: TV crap mood: c'mon already!
i'm STILL not done, but i'm getting there. CDs, DVDs and books are packed. i still have some clothing (that i'm going to be wearing in the next couple of weeks) and ALL of my toys. for those of you who wanted to buy some - please come and get them. i sooo don't want to have to pack them. heh.
moving right along...
Posted by
Dina on 11.08.05 @ 10:21 PM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, November 5th
endless piles of crap
music: SOAD - psycho mood: productive
i HATE packing. this tiny apartment contains SO MUCH crap! i don't know where i got it all. i mean, i've been living in new york for six years, but i came here with nothing and for most of that time i was broke. how did i find the spare cash to acquire all this shit??? ack! and how did i suddenly become a minimalist? seriously, the only thing i like crowded with color is my skin. so far i've packed four sizable boxes, and that's just with stuff i had INSIDE my closets. so my apartment still looks like i've done nothing to it. not to mention, that i'm not really done with the closet contents either. haha! this is fucking rediculous! lol.
i seriously need to get rid of some of this shit.
ok, back to packing.
Posted by
Dina on 11.05.05 @ 10:19 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, November 4th
yes, there IS a light...
music: nothing mood: still hopeful
apartment rented =)
*sigh of relief*
now the packing frenzy begins. lol. i also have to paint the other apartment.
more to come...
Posted by
Dina on 11.04.05 @ 03:14 PM EEST :: [link]
is there a light at the end of the tunnel?
music: [SITD] - rose colored skies mood: hopeful
someone put in an application on my apartment and is supposed to sign the lease at 2pm.
*crosses fingers*
i'd love to be able to move on from freaking out about that to freaking out over trying to pack all my shit in no time =P
Posted by
Dina on 11.04.05 @ 12:18 PM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, November 3rd
at least
music: silence mood: i'm working on it
i got the apartment i wanted =) now cross your fingers for me... i'm still searching for someone to take over my lease here. heh.
Posted by
Dina on 11.03.05 @ 08:07 AM EEST :: [link]
Wednesday, November 2nd
hollow
music: nothing mood: (see: subject)
so today i did something i thought was necessary. i didn't want to do it, but all recent actions had lead me to believe that i had no other choice. i tried getting around it by attempting to control my feelings, i tried pretending i didn't even care and i also tried creating negative feelings so that there would be no choice but to walk away from this... i won't go into the exact detail of it cuz even that's too painful to think about. even now, it brings tears to my eyes. ones i am currently trying to battle.
my life has become somewhat messy. for many reasons - some practical and some emotional. i don't like messes. come visit me sometime, you'll see how retarded i am about keeping things in order. so right now i feel as though things are spinning out of control. however, i refuse to stop trying to control things. if i stopped, it would be really bad.
so at this point i think it's safe to say that i have to step back and take things one at a time. not something i'm very good at (the whole lack of patience thing). the first thing i have to straighten out, is the apartment situation. once i'm done freaking out about that, i'll be on to my next obstacle. school. right now i'm afraid i'm going to have to continue my attempt at ignoring my heart. otherwise i'm never going to get anything done.
Posted by
Dina on 11.02.05 @ 08:40 PM EEST :: [link]
blech!
music: office noises mood: (see: subject)
i always try to be an adult about things, but sometimes i just can't do it.
sometimes i also hate people. humans, that is.
i wish i was able to just crush any feelings i have that are unnecessary. feelings that impair my functionality.
where is the person i'm supposed to be? the strong, unmovable, stubborn girl who gets what she wants?
Posted by
Dina on 11.02.05 @ 02:25 PM EEST :: [link]
yay!
music: asp - weltunter mood: ok
ASP makes me happy =) thank you, sandra, for introducing him to me!
Posted by
Dina on 11.02.05 @ 09:23 AM EEST :: [link]
last minute
music: silence mood: awake
after debating it for a week or so, i had more or less decided to stay in this apartment. i figured that (since i'm a lazy bitch) it would just be easier to stay put and not have to run around like a maniac trying simultaneously to find another place for me to live and someone to take over my lease. not to mention that i'm not really a fan of the whole packing and unpacking process (which is part of the reason i'm looking to sell some of my stuff). so i was content with staying. besides, this lease was supposed to end at a very convenient time for the rest of my plans etc.
however, yesterday as i was going about my business at the office, a friend of mine popped up and said 'my landlord has an apartment for you, call him.' at first i wasn't sure it was an entirely good idea, being that i decided to take the lazy way out and what have you. but then i figured, what the hell? i might as well see what's up. so i called and he was saying that there was an apartment for me in my price range that would be available on the 15th of the month or so. this was good because if i am to break my lease here, i have to be out by the 20th. so i made some more calls to the management company for the building i live in now to get some final details on how i'm supposed to go about this, and got that done too. as it stands, i am obligated to be out in nineteen days from now and don't know exactly what's up.
last night i showed this place to four people, two of which seemed to like it and two who assumed that looking at a $1350 studio in manhattan would get them some huge loft. LOL. they walked in and were like 'oh, this place is much smaller than i thought.' i'm willing to bet a lot of money that they were from out of town. out of state, even. no one living in this city thinks that this price range will get them anything remotely sizable. heh. anyway, those two seem interested and i'm supposed to call them a little later to give them the info for the leasing office so they can take it from there. however, as i was instructed by the girl at the leasing office, i'm not going to stop showing the place till the lease is signed. people in this city always think they can get something more for their money. but that's when they get screwed over and a smarter person grabs what they thought was not enough - only to get stuck with something smaller and/or crappier. hehe.
this morning, too, someone was supposed to come see the place but called and canceled at the last minute. so i am now left with all this time in which to do nothing =D later i shall be going out to brooklyn to see a couple of apartments that are owned by the same person. i hope at least one of them works for me. and then it's back home to show this place to a couple more people.
these are going to be a few really hectic weeks.
oy.
Posted by
Dina on 11.02.05 @ 07:31 AM EEST :: [link]