ok, so today i managed to wirte quite a bit more of my paper. it's coming along nicely and should be done in plenty of time to allow me to reread and make corrections etc. when i was done with that, i headed down town to meet orit. i was going to unimax for more plugs. i've been wearing the same ones since i started working for nestseekers, which is quite a while. what i eneded up getting were more of the ones that i lost at some point (while having sex :P). hopefully this time i'll be able to hold on to them. i also bought some little plugs for my 6g holes. however, they are the kind that have no o-rings and need to stretch the holes before they agree to fit. so that got me playing with my huge collection of body jewelry (which i will mostly never wear again). i managed to find one piece that will stretch the holes just to the right size for me to be able to force the little plugs in slightly more comfortably than what they would take now (yes, i tried). in the process, i took a few other pieces out and am now wearing two captive bead rings (!!) and an ear nail that dan gave me a while ago. god, i miss him. i will have them in till the end of the weekend. it's funny, though... i am no longer used to dangling objects hanging off of my ears and they feel heavy. hehe.
tonight is contempt. fuck all y'drama queens. i'm coming out tonight and nothing you do will make me bat an eyelash. yes, now i feel more like myself :)
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Dina on 11.27.04 @ 06:39 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, November 26th
now where did this come from?
music: still silence mood: antsy
for those of you who know me, i'm sure you will find this completely weird... but for some reason i have the urge to go hiking! i haven't done that since i was in junior-high and have not had the desire to do anything of the sort since (let's see... that would make it about 16 years or so). i hate dirt and i hate not being able to shower regularly/conveniently. what can i say, i'm spoiled. but now, for some reason, i just want to go. anywhere, really. perhaps this inspiration comes from orit? very possible. does ANYONE do this kind of shit anymore?
yestreday was nice. it started out with the fact that i did not have to be up at stupid to do some reading or to get ready for work etc. after spending a few ours talking to someone in the middle of the night, the extra hours in the morning were nice. i took my time waking up, made some order in the apartment and then started writing my second paper. this paper is definitely easier than the first one was. when my goal was met for the day, orit and i headed over to steve to continue my/his rendition of halloween town. hehe. the work itself did not take all that long, but let me tell you... it hurt! lol. he tattooed me in places i have yet to be tattooed. yes, there is always a new sensation to be experienced. anyway, when we were done, orit and i headed over to BBQs for some super-huge frozen drinks and some munchies. we sat and BSed till we decided to veture out into the extreme cold again and make our way back home. i don't think either one of us lasted too long before we passed out.
today is a work day. i think. lol. when getting dressed, i was unable to utilize any bra-type thing because the area we worked on yestreday is right under where it would be. it's been a while since i've done anything that rendered me powerless against such undergarments. anyway, since i am currently the only one in the office, i am not entirely sure of what people here had in mind for today. being alone is nice, though. i wouldn't mind if no one showed up till about ten o'clock. i think at that point, though, i would be picking my ass up and going back home.
i believe that later i shall continue writing my cute little paper and perhaps just stay in, hiding from the cold. my apartment is warm and toasty :P
welp, it has come to my attention once again that i am doomed to be single for the rest of my existance. however, since this is a realization i come to rather often, i'm not sure i actually care anymore. the reason i was confronted by this thought again is because there were a couple of potentials who i had some interest in. in one case, given the situation, i knew from the start that there was no chance. so i gave it up. it was the logical thing to do. the other one was more of the 'absentee person syndrome' scenario. which is another thing i have to remind myself not to do. there simply is no one. no one real, at least.
well this is all too familiar to me. for lunch i had a bottle of chocolate milk and i am currently still attempting to consume a small container of cottage with pineapple. it's difficult. not that there is all that much pain, but this is done in effort to help my gums heal without taking too long. to that end, i have to do this: 1) not consume anything hot 2) not chew on anything hard 3) not spit lol. yes, i realize how that sounds. and no, it makes no sense as such. however, it looks like my diet for the next few days is going to be lots of sweet drinks - the calorie filled ones, ice cream and yogurt. sounds like the diet i was on when i broke my jaw, minus the ice cream and yogurt. haha.
so... yesterday was wisdom teeth pulling day. i got to work at my normaml hour, did what i was able to do in a half a day, and headed over to NYU dental to get this done. i was there on time, but what i was not expecting was my doctor to have en emergency with another one of his patients. i sat there for a while, when he told me that i can either come back later in the day, rescedule or have another doctor do the procedure for me. since i was not fond of the either one of the first two choices, i opted for the last one. then i waited. before i sat wodn to do anything, my original doctor had informed me that the process should take about an hour. for each tooth, that is. when the other doctor finally got to me, i was sure that i would be getting out of the clinic much later. so i sat down in the dentist chair, answered a few questions, and was administered not one, not two, but four novocaine injections. fun. then the pushing and pulling began. however, before i knew it, it was over. the entire process - from begenning to end, took about a half an hour. including the injections and the explanation of what i can and cannot do. lol. nice and easy. what would have made this even nicer is if i hadn't had to wait forever to get it done in the first place. hehe. once i was done, it was time to meet up with orit. she wanted to go check out some bartending gig. and then we headed over to school to meet martha. she had made some copies of something i needed. after chillin' there for a bit, i headed back down town to meet one of my favorite people for dinner. well, i didn't eat... but the intention was by the time i got home, i was dead. although my mouth was not really in pain, it was extremely annoying throughout the rest of the day... i was exhausted.
as for today? i have no plans. i have to start writing a paper, but i might leave that till tomorrow since i have the day off (shocker!). any suggestions?
yesterday, after i did my errands, i decided that walking towards my apartment was a good idea... even though it was a bit far. see now, walking is usually nice, but it always contributes to one thing: i end up shopping. i really shouldn't be spending any money on clothing or anything else. but i'm a girl, and as such i simply cannot help it. hehe. anyway, by the time i made it home, i was one dress and one skirt richer. they're cute. another experience from that walk was that for the first time since i moved to new york, i passed by a department store (bloomindales) that actually had a holiday theme that i liked. the first thing that stopped me was the loud music (they do this, and i usually hate it). they had the phantom of the opera playing, which is a work that i rather enjoy. then, as i walked by the different display windows, i was actually pleasantly surprised by the wonderful comstumes and outfits they had the mannequins dressed in.
other than that, in a few hours i am going to get two of my wisdom teeth pulled out. fun. i hope it doesn't take too long, but it just might. we'll see how i feel after that, but dinner with a good friend is in order... assuming i am not too numb or in pain to actually eat anything. lol. that's going to be amusing. regarldess, i shall be sleeping like a baby tonight, methinks.
the funny thing about waking up before you really have to is that you find yourself doing things you don't think of doing otherwise. or things you simply don't usually have time to do in your busy day. this morning i woke up at 8am. why would anyone wake up at that hour on a sunday? i guess i have a few reasons. one of them being that i actually went to sleep rather early last night. another one, is a slightly more productive one; there are a million things i have to do today. of course there is also the fact that the entire left side of my back as well as my left arm are feeling slightly uncomfortable due to some ink work i had done yestreday.
let's see... i don't quite remember when i woke up yesterday, but i believe it was in just enough time to make it to steve's for the appointment we've had planned for over a month now. we intended on working on my arm so that we could finally cover the oogly tribal piece i have on it. instead, the usual occured: we sat around talking for a bit, discussing what else needed to be done in order to complete the nightmare project and ended up doing something completely different. instead of focusing on what we thought we would, we decided that figuring out the background (aka halloween town) would be a better place to start. using the few pictures i found online, steve sat down with a red sharpie and started drawing on me. no stencil. lol. the drawing and doodling took a little over an hour and a half, but we were both happy with it. that's when he started doing the outline. any plans for doing some heavy work have been moved up a bit. the actual needle work took just about an hour and a half - the shortest session i've ever had with him. by the time he was done, i emerged with the cutest outline for most of the rest of the project. the one part we hardly ended up touching was, you guessed it, my arm. it's so cute, i can hardly stop staring at it in the mirror. of course this requires the uncomfotable act of turning my head around almost 180 degrees, but hey... lol. i got home much later than i had expected and was not feeling up to actually leaving my apartment again. after all, that would have required getting dressed. putting something over brand new ink is never fun. especially if it's a bra. so my choice for the evening's activity was fixing up my apartment and completing the work i began the day before: mounting a little table/counter space on my 'kitchen' wall, putting up another (much needed) shelf and doing some general cleaning. i know, i'm so exciting.
today's activities are going to include getting my nails done. i got rid of the acrylic extentions for now, but i did it my way and now they have to be soaked off properly, so i don't look like a third grader who can't seem to stop biting his nails. manicures are nice. then, i have to head over to bed bath and beyond to find two little stools to go with my new-found eating space, followed by a trip to the museum of natural history since i haven't been there in over a year. of course there is also much studying to be done, let's not forget that. hehe.
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Dina on 11.21.04 @ 10:08 AM EEST :: [link]
Monday, November 15th
changes
music: TV mood: not sure
ok, it's time that some things changed around here. firstly, i believe i shall be taking a nice long break from any clubbing/public drinking. secondly, i no longer wish to let matters of the heart bother me. i'm done. third, i am going to get on top of school matters again, before it's too late. fourth, well... i will not discuss it in a public journal in order not to get my ass in trouble.
my mood has now officially changed. i am a survivor. always have been. at this point in time i shall be concentrating on the positive: people who love me, the lovely apartment i live in, and my health (yes, i know that it's cliche).
i've never cried so hard in my life!! i can't fucking believe i could be so fucking NAIVE!! how could you be such an asshole?!?!? i don't even care if you die. i know i feel dead.
music: white zombie - more human than human mood: groggy
last night was interesting. orit and i started out at alison's for some drinkage. going to her house for drinks is always a promise of good times, since we never really know where we're going to end up. last night, however, i knew exactly where i was going. so once we were feeling just buzzed enough, we headed down town to apocalypse, where amber and ru have their night. ru always spins fun music and amber is just the best person to have a conversation with. i managed to drag kain and his people over there, which was the best part of the night. as i was hanging out with these lovely people, i realized a few things... the most intense realization, though, was that i really don't want kain to leave and go back to that aweful place. of course, this revelation came with other thoughts and whatnot, but that was the resulting feeling. i could go on about this, but i think that in this case i should not put it all out for everyone to read. i will just say again that i am going to be very sad, come monday.
last night was nice. nothing too extravagant, but rather relaxed. i got home at about 6pm and orit grabbed me for some food shopping. i'm usually not one to go food shopping, i order in a lot. but orit is not as 'american' as i am and had a blast at the store. hehe. not only that, but she prepared the stuff for both of us and we sat down to eat it in front of the television :P
later on we were joined by kain and a friend of his for a movie. unfortunately it is a week night... otherwise i would not have kicked them out as early as i did.
i've been here since eight o'clock this morning. i was supposed to be here to finish up something i couldn't do yesterday. but the guy who i am supposed to do this with only showed up at 8:30... and since i am supposed to be a receptionist till 10am, we didn't get too much done. oh well, i guess we'll finish it shortly.
this week i am going to have to do some serious catching up on my school work. i mean, not that there is all that much of it to begin with, but i have been neglecting it in favor of doing nothing. heh. so i think tonight is going to be spent with my books... doing lots of reading. at some point i am going to have to do some design work for a friend as well. thank god i only start my dentistry mess next week, otherwise i'd seriously be getting no sleep.
does life ever get interesting? i have to ask since mine has been... well... extremely dull for so long, i don't even remember when i was excited over something for more than two minutes. i can go on forever on this subject, but i'll leave it at that.
i'm not sure how to update this thing right now. but it's been a while and i feel i should. should i pick up where i left off? not sure if i remember it all...
thursday, after class, i rushed home to grab orit who had been waiting for me all day. we got ready and headed out to apocalypse. it was an interesting evening. most of it involved talking to the lovely amber and listening to her man spin a killer set. i drank too much and orit got to see her man. i knew some of the people there and was join by yet another dear friend a little later on.
friday began with waking up in all of my clothing and finding orit and thai sleeping on my floor. lol. we all just passed out. friday was painful. i was so tired that i was falling asleep in my professor's face. i had to leave early... it was embarassing. i had plans to go out, but ended up staying in.
saturday included little errands and lunch with one of my favrite people. laibach was supposed to play at the cave but ended up cancelling. this brought out lots of people who would otherwise not have shown up. i also got some strange news, which i have yet to figure out how i want to take... the best part of the night, though, was kain. most of the evening was spent in his company. i am seriously going to miss him when he leaves.
today was ok. i had to be at work for a while... the usual. right now i think i am about to pass out. orit is way ahead of me.
so i guess i forgot to mention yesterday with the whole dentistry post that i actually had to finally remove my tongue piercing. it was my first body piercing, done 9.5 years ago. it had managed to destroy the bone in the front part of my jaw, so it had to be gotten rid of. this was the fourth piercing i had given up since about six months ago, when i started working at my current job. it feels weird, but i'm sure i'll get used to it in no time. heh.
in other news... orit is now here and is sound asleep at the dinahaus. this morning was easy enough. i had managed to get five hours of sleep, thanks to a friend (thank you :) who recommended that i not be retarded and attempt to go through 48 hours without any sleep. getting there was done via cab and in no time...and as i was waiting for her i even had the pleasure of entertainment as i know someone who works at the airport that just happened to be there.
today will include work, class and then most likely a venture out to a bar or two, to show the girl around a little. yay!!
went to the dentist at NYU after work today. it was supposed to be routine checkup/medical background questioning etc. the whole thing ended up taking me two and a half hours and i was seen by four doctors. yes, of course this has to do with my accident five years ago. not only did it take forever to do routine shit cuz my mouth is all messed up, but other doctors came in to give different opionions on what should be done. it was rather dramatic. this is what is going to take place in the near future: aside from getting my wisdom teeth pulled and the rest of my mouth seriously cleaned, i shall be getting some orthodontistry done as well. i must admit i never thought i would have the braces experience twice in my life. the first time i was an awkward teen with metal in her mouth, which was paid for by her parents... this time i am an adult who will not have metal in her mouth (but rather that clear plate stuff), which will be paid for out of her own pocket. how? she'll figure it out. even though for most people this is an aesthetic choice (as it was for me when i was a kid), for me it is more of a necessity. see, one of my front teeth basically has no bone left to support it, and my teeth are crowded in that area as well... so were going to take care of those two in one shot. not to mention that i discovered that this orthodontic work is needed for my bite, which changed dramatically when i broke my jaw.
so today i learned that instead of investing in perhaps the construction of a new machine, i must invest in my mouth... which is already the most expensive part of my body. even more than my skin ;)
so what have i been up to besides being depressed and angry... probably not much since there really is not much that seems to make me happy these days. however, i am thankful for kain who is here for a couple of weeks. he is a sweet, beautiful boy whos company i've had the pleasure of enjoying for the last few days. other than that, i am kind of hoping things will pick up for me... at least mood-wise tomorrow. a really good friend of mine is coming to visit from israel for an indefinite amount of time. i have not seen her in just about three years and am looking forward to sharing my life with her once again. she and i used to be as close as they get. and then i left the country. so there's that, and then there's the weekend that i am looking forward to. not that there is anything special going on. but i do believe that i will embark on another korova adventure with orit (my beautiful israeli friend), alison and others. unfortunately, i have the pleasure of having to go to that wonderful class of mine on friday, before i can go anywhere. isn't the semester over yet?
no really, don't. i was going to post a whole political venting session here. but my brain is too tired and cannot even grasp the stupidity of this 'great' american country.