feeling slightly depressed. i'm not a big fan of these moods. especially when there really is no good reason. well... i guess there is. there are a few of those. was even considering not going to see rasputina. but sitting here, dwelling in it won't do me any good. on the other hand i don't think that crying in public is a good idea either. blah.
welp, it turns out that my weekend is slightly tamer than i had expected it to be... not that i'm complaining or anything, it's just that i didn't expect to be sober or in one piece by this time. heh. friday night was pretty cool, though uneventful. rob and i started at joe's. we had lots to drink and left for smack just as the place was getting a little too crowded to breathe :P smack was ok. hung out with what seems to have become my usual group of people, danced a bit, talked to random people in drunk-speak and (of course) ended up calling a certain person in my drunkness. thank god he didn't answer. lol. i didn't end up staying there too long. i cabbed it home, where i promptly fell asleep in my super-tight dress and my huge boots. naturally i woke up a couple of hours later, battled with the dress till it gave in (and came off) and flung my boots somewhere in the apartment... so i could continue sleeping uninterrupted. i slept till 4pm. the rest of the day was spent in bed. i was going to go to a friend's party but was not feeling too hot. then i ended getting dragged out to the cave anyway. and i'm glad i did. the place was relatively crowded, and some of my favorite people were there. i was especially happy to see kain, whom i have not had the pleasure of seeing in just about a year. i'm not sure how late i left, but today i found out that i missed someone whom i'd have loved to see. i haven't known this person for too long, but for some reason i miss him. lol.
and now i am sitting here in the office, completing tasks i had no time to do during the week. once i am done here it will be another mad rush to get home, get ready and head over to the rasputina show. once again, it shall be rob and myself... with the possibility of a few additions.
music: robin and casey being silly mood: anticipatory
i don't know just how much this thing is going to be udpated this weekend since i plan on being unconscious for most of it. aside from a few hours in the office on sunday, which i do intend on accomplishing, my time will be spent drunk and partying. why? cuz i can. and well, cuz halloween is the only holiday i like or even acknowledge (jewish, christian or otherwise). so after i get out of class and hopefully pick up my dress, it will be a mad rush to get ready, out the door and on with the drinkage.
i think i have a total of five parties/events to go to in the span of three days. i should be in recovery on monday... w00t!
p.s. it's nice to know that there are still some genuine people out there. you know who you are :)
music: people running around the office mood: accomplished
yep, dork. i find that this is the word that suits me best. i spend all day troubleshooting stuff for my boss, thinking lots of the things are undoable... only to find out that i can, in fact, successfully complete seemingly impossible tasks. for example: the devil that is microsoft outlook. i started out at this job not knowing the first thing about it. i hate the idea of pop mail. my darling host is nice enough to provide me with web access, so i never have to worry about it. in this office, on the other hand, pop is what we use. i believe i have now mastered every single little part of it. and what still remains to be learned, i will easily figure out based on what i already know. the lovely amber helped me a bit today, and now my training is complete. i am i jedi!! so the part that i think makes me feel as dorky (or geeky - depending on who you're asking) as i do, is that after i sit there forever trying like hell to make something work (that should have been working the first time i tried), i feel a complete sense of satisfaction when it does :P
there's nothing quite like listening to music at full volume on your ipod. especially when you get stupid looks from the people around you on the subway or bus. i'm never sure if these are annoyed or confused looks. though i think i rather enjoy annoying people i don't know, so i prefer the former. this music is also pretty therapeutic after a night of not getting much sleep. see, as usual, i was planning on finishing some studying and/or a paper and got distracted by other, more entertaining things (it seems that these days i am somewhat ADD. lol.). so once again, i only got some of it done. i went to sleep relatively early, planning on getting up with enough time to complete my tasks. but alas, i am way too lazy to get up in the morning, it seems. i got up with enough time to do some and then get ready to go to work. however, i must admit that looking at my paper this time allowed me to make corrections on errors that i had not noticed previously. i have no idea why the fuck i'm having such a difficult time doing this one. perhaps it's cuz i much prefer to be out drinking? or perhaps just be watching some movie? well honestly, it's probably both. with that said, i will be done tonight. no choice there, it's due tomorrow.
after work today i shall be heading to school for completion of yet more homework and a class. this shall be followed by going to tomer's to pick up my mail and various other packages containing crap that i ordered (nightmare shit, of course, and hopefully my dress). only then will it be time for me to finish the nightmare which is my social anthropology paper.
on that note, i cannot stress enough how much i am looking forward to tomorrow. i will first go to joe's party (his parties do rock) and then to smack. i hope to be severely intoxicated by the time i get to the second part of my evening.
well, i was woken up this morning just a little bit before i had intended on doing it myself, by the radiator. it finally works. not that this apartment has a problem with temperature, but it's nice to know that if it gets one, i have a way to control it. i had someone in here over the weekend to look at it cuz it hadn't been working. good, one less thing to think about. yesterday after work, i headed over to the NYU school of dentistry in order to get started on what they call 'registration.' registration is this annoying process, during which they take a zillion ex-rays of every possible angle in your mouth (and a few more) and then they make you sit there forever until the entire staff looks them over. i nearly fell asleep. then, they tell you to come back a week later for a general examination of what they did not see when you were first there. in my case, i'm sure that they'll keep on discovering amazing things as they go along. my dental history is... well... complicated. so next week i have this follow up appointment at NYU, which will then lead into what i went there for originally - wisdom tooth extraction. yay!! haha. my real dentist is not an oral surgeon, and recommended i do this before moving on with anything we do.
i was there for two hours (!!) and headed over to meet martha. we were going to queens so she could give me a second opinion on the paper i have to hand in on friday. however, even after this, i am still not done. i will have to complete it tonight, otherwise imma be up extremely late on thursday. lol. i don't think i want that, though... what with my plans for friday and what have you.
speaking of which, i must admit that i honestly cannot get motivated about this semester. i'm just not interested. it's definitely not because the subjects i am studying are uninteresting... i just seem to prefer having the option of coming home after a very long day at work and being lazy. i'm sick of always having to worry about what's next on the homework list. i'm getting close to the end of my third year and i'm bored. lol. not to mention that now it is going to take me even longer to get it done since i'm only taking six credits a semester (as apposed to the twelve i was taking before). with all that said, i'm not going to quit. i don't quit. i hope my grades stay as good as they were until now, but that remains to be seen. but i will see this 'project' to its conclusion.
so my weekend was pretty cool. most of it is a blur now, while other parts are experiences i'd like to repeat as often as possible. contempt was awesome, as to be expected. most of the usual people were there, plus others whom i have not seen in a long time. one specific one who i could have done without seeing for another few years. heh. going there, i had every intention of getting completely obliterated, which i believe i achieved quite nicely. i wasn't too drunk to remember where my smack ticket came from and to not lose anything this time, the way i did last month. i honestly was not going to go to smack, but mister flam was running around trying to sell his tickets and i was standing there with someone else who pulled out the cash... so naturally i felt that i needed to do this as well. lol. i suppose this is better than deciding at the last minute that i want to go and ending up paying way more cuz i'm too lazy to wear a costume. so there was that, and then there was my drunken phone call to a friend at 3:30 or 4am while on my way home in cab. haha. i always find it amusing when someone does that to me, but even more so when i am reminded of doing it myself the next day.
sunday was my day for paper writing. i obviously got distracted by a million different things and ended up having to complete it this morning. it's still not done and i have a bad feeling about the results. but i guess i'll find that out sometime next week when the professor hands it back. later i shall finish it up.
i wanted to go see kerry play tonight, but i really do need to get my act together (and get inspired about this semester, which i cannot seem to do). not to mention that tomorrow evening is going to be wasted on an appointment at NYU dental. fun fun.
i had every intention of going to LBV last night... but as time passed, i realized i was not going to go after all. i started out with a couple of drinks with a friend, and as we talked, we decided that we were better off just not going. talking, after all, is much easier to achive outside of such a noisey environment. i had a good time :) tonight is contempt, definitely. but not before i start writing this paper and get my nails done. teehee.
as i anticipated, after losing the ugly belly i had going on for a while, now the rest of me is shrinking too. i know this because a lot of the pants i bought over the last year or so are now getting rather loose and i can almost fit into most of the stuff i couldn't for a long time. just in case you were interested.
music: office noises mood: still the adrenaline flows
ok, so i decided against going to the ministry show last night after all. i had no other plans besides studying and getting a little more rest than i would have otherwise. however, when i left the office, i went to a local bar with robin for a couple of drinks. we sat and talked about shit that's been going in our lives... dilemmas, positive and negative occurrences. you know, girl talk. the bar was ok, but i'm not a baseball fan and that's obviously what was on everyone's agenda. so every once in a while people would yell or boo at the top of their lungs, and we had to wait till they were done. heh. once i got home, however, i obviously found more interesting things to do with my time. i got no studying or homework done. so once again, i woke up at the ass-crack of dawn and did what i had to do. today will look slightly different: i have class after work. once that's done i shall be heading home to begin writing a paper, which is due in a little over a week. i have reading to do as well and some housey stuff. there are other things to do, which i will not discuss right here. but i'm looking forward to them :)
without going into too much detail, i have to say that sometimes things happen when you're not expecting them to (actually, that's when they usually happen)... or rather when you've just decided that life needs to take a normal path because you've already done it all. and not to say that this certain something is anything that can be defined as conventional, or even something that you were hoping was going to happen. it's just different. and it's exciting in ways that the mind cannot really describe in actual words. however good one may be at expressions of such nature. i will say no more, except this: the mood i am currently in (see above) has been with me for the last 24 hours or so. and it seems to grow stronger with time. and please, dear readers, do not attempt to try and interpret what may seem very obvious to the naked eye. it is not what it seems. in fact, i am not even sure what it is myself...
drank more than i wanted to again :P but there were good times and i didn't realy drink that much. i got to see delchi, david, kelly, the smiths [;)], the still life decay people (too tired to link everyone) and many more. it was a good night and i have three hours to sleep. heh.
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Dina on 10.18.04 @ 04:13 AM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, October 17th
a pretty decent saturday night
music: fairlight children - falling out mood: content
last night i allowed myself to get dragged over to the cave. i really wasn't going to go anywhere, what with getting blitzed the night before and plans for doing the same tonight... however, when i went over to prema's to borrow a wrench, she asked if i wanted to go. since i was feeling fine and figured i had nothing else to do, i decided to go for it :P we headed over there at about 1am and the place was actually fairly full. i was sober and intended on staying that way. most of the night was spent sitting with joe at coat check (as usual) and his beautiful friend shae. we BSed and talked shit about how retarded most people look these days... basically criticizing everyone who walked by to go smoke. i'm good at giving opinions even when they're not needed. heh. the best part of the evening, though, was actually enjoying the company of quite a few people whom i haven't seen in way too long. my friend chris, who had dropped off the face of the planet, was there... and i had the pleasure of seeing good ol' mister sabertooth, just to name a couple. lol.
today there was obviously no hang over, but i think my body is mad at me for friday night cuz i have this cute pain in my left kidney. one of my co-workers claims he's had that too, after too much drinking. i think i'll wait until tomorrow (and not drink tonight at Byte) before deciding if i need a doctor or not.
in other news (but on the same topic), i am quite looking forward to next week. friday will be LBV, and then saturday is contempt. however, the part of next week that i am most looking forward to involves another person. one who i have not seen in a while :) i get butterflyish just thinking about it. yay!
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Dina on 10.17.04 @ 04:51 PM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, October 16th
good times
music: silence mood: ouch
so... umm... i've managed to find myself with an intense hang over once again. i suppose that drinking from 8:30pm all the way through to 4:30am will do that. heh. but seriously though, no complaints since i had a pretty good time last night. after work, i hurried to get to class on time. it was more interesting than usual, so i was good even though i hadn't gotten too much sleep. after that prema came to meet me and we were supposed to head right over to martha's for drinkage. however, my boss needed me to do him a favor. so we rushed over to the office for a bit and then cabbed it to queens. i finally got to meet some of martha's friends whom i've only had the pleasure of hearing about this far. so we had drinks and talked girly stuff, at which point some of us had to leave. at first i was going to go home, but on second thought i figured going out would be much more interesting. heh. however, i made a stop at home cuz i was carrying too much crap from my day. i headed downtown to a new event (called 'AMEN' i believe), on ludlow street and met up with alison and her friend mike. we decided it was ok, but they were bored. so korova it was. korova always allows for amusement. heh. thankfully, no drama this time. just good times with good people. i ran into a bunch of 10100 guys (thankfully, none of those who i can't stand), which was cool, and ended up talking to a guy i met there with his girlfriend the week before. the thing i found the most entertaining was the fact that we talked for so long that i wound up being there till closing. lol. i've never stayed that late at a bar. at this point, i allowed myself to get dragged to an after party with wolfgame. however, after deciding that i've had enough, i left before actually getting there.
now, though, i think i should drag my hung over self to get some sushi and liquids. can't stay in bed all day.
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Dina on 10.16.04 @ 02:45 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, October 15th
calories - my obsession
music: office chatter mood: full
ok, so this is the fifth day of my diet and i must say that it is going quite nicely... i have been very carful about what i eat and when i eat it. i've also been remembering to drink a shit-load of water and green tea. on this fifth day, i have the pleasure of looking at myself in the mirror and seeing a completely flat stomach. something i have not seen in a year or so. i have my cute little four-pack (yes, a four-pack - not six.) back and it makes me smile. it amuses me to no end to see how my body fat reduces itself in the exact opposite order from which it was gained: first i got bigger boobs (a cup D, mind you), then my butt/thighs got bigger, and finally i developed an annoying little belly... which i'm sure some people think is cute. and now we take it in reverse: my stomach shrunk back to (what i consider) normal proportions, next will be my butt, and finally (thankfully) my boobs will go back to being a C. see, now i don't know if any one of you actually wanted to know all of this, but there ya have it. if it's too much information, then i apologize :P but you know my affliction with my stupid body weight, so you should be happy that i'm finally satisfied with what i see. heh. after all, it means that i might stop talking about it at some point. lol. the thing is that i don't really have too much weight to lose. it's just that when you don't weigh all that much to begin with, everything you gain, shows (or is felt). so now that i'm finally doing something about it, it's working. and rather efficiently too. ...i might just achieve the weight i'm going for by halloween.
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Dina on 10.15.04 @ 01:48 PM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, October 14th
what in the world?
music: office noises mood: bouncy
as someone who used to think that pointy toed shoes were one of the more hideous things to look at, i find it quite amusing that i now really like the look and find it quite attractive. heh.
oh, and another thing that i find worthy of mentioning is that while other people seem to getting themselves in knots over the stupid political situation in this country (and it is quite worrisome), i have taken to completely avoiding the potic on any one of my blogs (edit: notice i did not say completely avoiding it). while i am quite oppinionated, this will be the first and last time i will bring this issue up here. thank you for your attention.
...on with the nonsense that is my life :P
Posted by
Dina on 10.14.04 @ 09:37 AM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, October 12th
this coming weekend
music: placebo - nancy boy mood: shower time
six flags on saturday (if the weather permits). BYTE on sunday.
time for studying and sleeping? heh. maybe.
Posted by
Dina on 10.12.04 @ 09:25 PM EEST :: [link]
48 degrees?
music: radio mood: *brrr*
i'm not entirely sure if i'm ready for winter just yet. but i guess, since the days seem to be getting colder ever so gradually, i will find myself right in the midst of it very soon. while i do love curling up in bed when my apartment is all warm and fuzzy, i can't say that i much care for the act of having to get out of bed and then leaving the house in sub-zero weather... but perhaps i am getting a little ahead of myself. with that said, i believe i am getting a cold. perhaps it's time for me to start taking vitamin C and possibly go get some cold medication... to prevent anything from getting out of hand.
in other news, i started a pretty serious diet (and no, i don't want to hear it from all of you who think i'm thin enough already). i am determined to lose 10lbs or so by halloween so that i can fit comfortably into everything i own and not have to feel like ass when i try on things in my closet that no longer fit me. essentially, this diet is one of my own making, inspired by my friend alison. it includes a huge intake of green tea (to help the metabolism going), lots of water, and two decent sized/healthy meals. i will not be eating anything after 8pm either. so far, even though i have yet to lose any weight, i feel pretty good. now, if my knee would only hurry up and get better, i'll be able to move my ass over to the gym.
other than that, it has officially been decided that i shall be embarking on another design adventure. this time it will be for my friend (and co-worker) robin vince and her jewelry. this will be the second jewelry site of my making (the first being dan's site), albeit of a very different style. i am excited :)
welp, it's been about four years since the last time something like this happened to me... but somehow, i managed to fuck up one of my knees again. it's so painful, i was limping all day. i'm wearing a pretty serious bandage and am trying to make myself feel better with hot-pack thingies and baths. but alas, i know that only time and rest will do the trick. so odds are against me. lol.
last night was much fun. however, it was mixed with more drama from something that i hoped was over. drama can be amusing when you watch psycho people make asses out of themselves :P
so... um... after trying to sleep the entire night and getting nothing out of it, i woke up on time to get ready for work only to realize that i felt like complete and utter crap. i had been coughing all night and not only did it prevent me from sleeping, it also gave me this nice throbbing pain in my chest and a little headache. so i took off what i had managed to put on and got back into bed. called the boss to let him know and asked if he could send some of what i had to do over here. i feel really guilty not going in. not to mention that i feel like i'm wasting precious time. there is so much crap i have to do... i can't really afford being sick. however, in efforts of not making it worse, the decision of staying home seemed most logical. i have been doing some tech and office support junk from here, though. meh.
well... i finally did it. i've been wanting to strip my hair of color for ages now. i miss being blonde. i mean, it's only been about three years or so. heh. however, it didn't turn out completely even. first of all, i didn't have enough developer, so i knew from the minute i started that it would turn out uneven. second, i didn't really try to strip the tips cuz i didn't want them to die. but yea, most of my hair is light enough, and shall be getting lighter gragually until i achieve complete airhead blondeness once more.
sometimes being a girl sucks... like when you have to put a bra on right over a new tattoo you got the day before. not only does it hurt, but it sticks to the ink as well as possibly rubbing it the wrong way. and before you comment about the part of this, which i know you're dying to, no, i cannot show up at work not wearing a bra. button-down shirts don't work very well with the look i try to maintain here at the office. oy.
ever since tomer moved to midtown, every time i go there i end up spending way too much time in one of the two parts of town i can't stand. and i spend it spending money. heh. today, rob and i had lunch and drinks over at martha's house. it was the first time i've been to queens since i moved out about two and a half months ago. we talked, watched some tv and such. then it was time for me to leave and get my shit done. one thing i had planned for today was actually going to st marks for a new pair of dickies. the ones i have are seriously falling appart or are simply not worn anymore cuz i don't like the way they fit. i was surprised that i still fit comfortably into a size 1. the only difference between buying these and the last time that i bought a pair of them is the fact that last time they were quite loose on me. i guess i'll just have to fix that then... then, i headed over to tomer's, where i picked up some mail and such. what i should have done was head right home. but instead i headed to the manhattan mall, where i ended up buying two pairs of shoes, a few skirts, shirts and other shit i can't think of now. that wasn't the end... every shopping venture includes H&M as well. they have some of the cutest coats. but i stayed away from those and stuck to office attire, as usual. i spend too much money on clothing.
tonight, i was supposed to head over to friends' birthday party... but i passed out and woke up a little too late to venture out to parts of queens i've never been in. however, it's still too early to go to sleep. it all remains to be seen.
tomorrow, i shall head into work early so i can spend some time there. however, the more interesting part of the day is going to be my tattoo appointment with steve. yes, that's right, i shall be adding another part to my nightmare project. yay!!
Posted by
Dina on 10.02.04 @ 10:14 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, October 1st
moo
music: silence mood: drunk
i knew this professor would be a dick. and he was... that was the worst exam i've had in ages. blech.