music: the mission - butterfly on a wheel mood: tired
so i managed to get my ass to sleep early enough to do another early-morning study session this morning. got my reading done and had enough time to take a nice long shower. at the moment i am debating whether or not i should do the dishes. i most likely will not. it occures to me that my life is quite odd at times. i find that in the span of very little time, i go from engaging in insane activities to leading a very 'normal' life. presonally, i'd prefer the former to be a little more present in my everyday occurrences, since i find myself dored otherwise. but i guess it gives me enough time to do the studying that i need to do. no, i still haven't lost sight of the fact that i am, in fact, trying to finish my education at some point. recently, i ran into someone from my past, on the bus on my way to work. she looked as miserable as ever, but now she had also quit school for a job she claimed to be unhappy with. sometimes i wonder what motivates people. i think that for me it's stubbornness and the fact that i don't like doing half the job. hence, i am a self-proclaimed perfectionist/extremist. i am either extremely passionate or completely cold.
and on that note, i will now straighten up in here a little.
i hope you all have a lovely day :)
Posted by
Dina on 09.28.04 @ 07:50 AM EEST :: [link]
Monday, September 27th
another week begins
music: assemblage 23 - purgatory mood: studious
so after leaving work yesterday, i didn't even bother with the subway. i immediately cought a cab as so prevent prolonging my suffering. however, i was soon to find out that too much motion while hung over is generally a bad idea. as i was speaking to a co-worker, trying to explain how to do something, i began feeling seriously ill. so much so, that i told this individual that i would have to call him back in order for me to tell the cab driver that he would have to pull over. after all, i didn't really want to puke in the car. or out the window, for that matter. activities such as those should be reserved solely for post-clubbing moments. so he pulled over, at which point i already felt better and was just hoping to hold it in until i got home. once home, i passed out again. just the way i did the night before... with my clothing and shoes on. eventually i managed to get up and out of these annoying things. the nap helped. i woke up feeling much better. but i still had no energy to do the studying i had to do. so i did what i always end up doing: going to sleep early enough to give me time to wake up at ass-o'clock and do my reading.
today work was hectic, as usual. on my way home i stopped at this store and purchased this bag (though the color i got is a deep red, which is oddly not on the site). i've been going in there occasionally and promising myself that i will get one of their gorgeous bags at some point. today i broke and finally did it. my new bag makes me happy :)
and now i must complete some more reading. at least i feel conscious enough to do it.
music: some crap someone is playing in the office mood: so very hung over
well then... i haven't been in this much pain in a very long time. it's odd too since i do drink quite a bit when i go out. i don't understand why this time has to be different than any other. oh well. lol. anyway, last night was good. though i remember only parts of it. i remember saying things i shouldn't have (i do that way too frequently), making some guy feel really uncomfortable (i'm good at that), meeting some new people (who i probably won't remember next time i see) dancing a whole lot, drinking too, and practically making out (did i just say that?) with two of the hottest girls in the room. now that was fun. i love being out of control... i just wish i knew when to shut up and who to say what to. in other words, it would be nice if it was only my physical being that lost control and not my mouth :P when i woke up this morning, it was about a half an hour after i was supposed to be here. so i threw on the first thing i could find and flew out the door. cabbed it down here only to find but a single person waiting to get in. sweet. i cannot begin to describe to you the intensity of this hang over. although i'm sure that most of you have felt something similar sometime in your past. oy. just moving makes me wanna puke and yet i have to sit here and answer the phones. good thing i have years of 'training' in the drunken phone answering business. ahh mangia, i knew you were good for something. good thing my boss isn't here though. had he been here, we would have been moving furniture and re-doing my space. i don't think i'd handle that all too well right now. lol.
Posted by
Dina on 09.26.04 @ 11:51 AM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, September 25th
all in a days... err... work
music: still silence mood: alright
stuff: * went to union square park to do some studying. * got about half of it done. * got nails done (again). * came home to study some more. * got unlazy about connecting my printer so i could print a flyer for tonight. * about to start thinking what to wear. * i can't believe i'm actually using all three computers right now. * boss is prolly stuck in florida so i gotta be at work at 9:30 tomorrow. boy am i going to look/feel HOT being there so early after tonight. oh well, i love my job and i shall do what has to be done :)
i haven't been up to much of late. and yes, i know, that seems to be what i do. i've been super lazy about studying, which is why i'm up now; to study. and just been concentrating on work. unfortunately. even though i was offered a free ticked to go see 'ghost in the shell 2', i had to turn it down cuz the one thing i won't do is miss class. since i don't have those all that often anyway. however, a quite wonderful result of that invitation, is that now james, dawn and i have plans for contempt tonight. even though it's been a while since i've seen them, it's not as long as it was before the last time, when james dropped off the face of the planet for a couple of years. these days we actually seem to communicate on a relatively regular basis, which rocks. james has always been one of my favorite people and one of the first i met here in the state. good times.
in other news, i broke down and bought the star wars DVD box set. at first i thoght i would just copy it from someone but then i realized that i was only kidding myself. i am a retarded star wars fan and just the thought of not owning the whole thing with the original art etc, was enough to send me into the heart of times square yesterday (ick) to purchase it. i have yet to sit down and watch it, but i think i'm going to have to make a night of it and invite people etc.
music: apoptygma berzerk - nonstop violence mood: ok
so yesterday, after having a hard time getting over the events of the night before (well the morning, really), i finally got a phone call that i had been expecting. since the events were rather dramatic, and i hate drama, i had told this individual to contact me at a later time (since there were obstructions at the time) in order to set things right. and he did. even though i was expecting that call, i was doubtful that it would take place. it was a pleasant surprise. appologies were made, the air was cleared and things are now back to where they should be. except for the fact that i am now one experience richer :)
music: people yapping on the phone mood: still sleepy
ok now... my neck hurts and so do various other parts of my body. you see, this would normally be a good thing, considering the source and reason. however, all the weirdness just makes it... well... weird and unsatisfying. argh.
so even though last night was a fucking blast, it turned out to be pretty fucking weird by the end of it. i have yet to speak to anyone involved and it's driving me insane. i got all sorts of misguided information, which lead to a rather odd situation. fun, but definitely odd.
i can't believe how cold it has gotten over the last couple of days. not that i'm complaining or anything, it's just odd. with that said, i have to emphasize that i really hadn't been outside of my house very much since friday, so i hadn't really noticed the weather too much till this morning. i've been doing a hell of a lot of sleeping. on friday, i passed out on rob and denise at about 11pm and slept through till 9am the next morning. then, i took my time getting up yesterday. it was about 12:30 by the time i actually managed to get my ass out of the house. going to get my nails done should have been a rather easy task: going to the corner, catching the downtown bus, walking a couple of blocks, sitting on my ass for a short while and then heading back uptown. simple. however, it was taking the 2nd avenue bus a really long time to arrive. at first there were two limited buses, which did not stop where i was waiting. then, i believe after about a half an hour, there was a bus i could take. it crawled for about three blocks, when we were informed that it was going to detour through lexington all the way down to 57th street. lovely. it took me for-fucking-ever to get where i was going. i was going to go to the apple store to get some decent headphones for my poor ipod (or for my poor ears), but the weather was crappy and i was lazy. so home it was. i think i got there at about 3pm, had lunch, and proceeded to take a five hour nap. i woke up in time to make some plans with prema. she came over, we talked and watched movies. and then, you guessed it, i went back to sleep. lol.
i woke up relatively early today (i wonder why) and got ready to make my way to the office. now i am sitting here, listening to some music i haven't heard in ages, waiting for the boss man to tell me what needs to be done, since i don't have anything important of my own to do.
well, not too much excitement in my life right now. the usual stuff is taking place (i.e. work), which is something i am greatful for. i still look forward to every day at the office, regardless of how insane it can get. the poeple i work with and for still rock. i hope to continue loving it this much for a long time yet :) other than that, i haven't really been very successful in the no drinking task i took upon myself last week. i mean, i haven't really been drinking too much, but twice this week i hung out at a bar with rob and denise, which naturally resulted in me consuming some alcoholic beverages. well, wine, that is. so i don't know. on the other hand, i've been very good at not eating stupid excessive amounts of food at stupid hours. i don't restrict the what, just the when and the how much. that's been good. on the upside of that, being buzzed in the company of people who make me laugh and whom i love dearly, is an expereince worth having. so i guess it's cool. lol.
in other news, i am rather looking forward to sunday night at BYTE. a new monthly party, which is the work of many good people, which i had a blast at on the opening event last month. this time around, though, i believe i shall be sticking around slightly longer than the last. also, i am bringing a bunch of people from the office. it's about time they saw what it is that i'm into. heh. i also think they'd get a total kick out of it :)
and now i must be off to get my nails done.
Posted by
Dina on 09.18.04 @ 11:08 AM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, September 12th
unexpected, this is
music: tv stuff mood: giddy
let's see... there is someone i know, who is way too far from me (geographically), that i'm totally crushing on. how do these things happen to me? it's making me feel all butterfly-ish and such. and yet, he's just so far away. meh.
last night i had people asking me what i was doing in on a friday night. heh. well, for those of you who hadn't noticed, i no longer go out every chance i get. in fact, i prefer to stay in in most cases. martha came over for a bit, i cut lots of my hair off and then went to sleep. before midnight :) this, of course, resulted in the fact that i was up by seven o'clock this morning. it's all good, though. martha is on her way back and we're going to get our nails done. sometimes i just love being a girl. well, i always do, but sometimes i can do silly stuff like getting my nails done. yay! after that, i shall be heading to the office, where i will be picking robin up to go visit steve. that's right, it's that time again. i get some new INK! finally. robin will be getting her first tattoo. i'm such an aweful influence :D i don't know what part of the nightmare project we will be working on. there is an oogly tribal to cover up and various characters to still be fit in in the remaining space. i cannot even begin to describe how excited i am. it's been way too long since i've had any color added to my collection of skin pigments :P
Posted by
Dina on 09.11.04 @ 09:23 AM EEST :: [link]
Friday, September 10th
i couldn't go through with it
music: unheilig - tanz mit dem feuer mood: silly
for those of you who don't know, i've been trying to grow the black out of my hair for over a year now. it was black for about two years, when i decided to develop an allergy to the pigment in hair dye. i've been a good, patient girl, letting my hair do its thing. all the while, having to put it up for work. i hate the way it looks in a bun. a braid i can stand, at least, but it's a pain in my ass none-the-less. so i've been considering, for a while now, just chopping off all of the remaining black and bleaching the part that would be left. today i even went out and bought all the needed 'tools' (i.e. powder, solution, and [black] laytex gloves) for the 'project.' i then proceeded to cut off a serious amount of hair. i think i cut about five inches off, if not more, when i decided that more would be too much. my hair is now just below shoulder-length but still has just a teeny bit of black at the tips. however, because of how curly my hair is, had i cut anymore, it would have ended up looking a lot shorter than it actually is. i have to admit, it now feels much healthier... which, i guess, was to be expected. so no blonde for now. but i do miss being a blonde sooo much. my natural hair color is just plain BORING. just a little more patience. that's all.
ok, so yesterday i got my second loan check and what do you think did? of course... i went shopping. it's a sickness at this point. i never think i have enough dress shirts, pants or shoes. it doesn't really help my situation that i actually like the way these things look, either. i picked the check up at tomer's house, and instead of going right home, i wondered into the manhattan mall and ended up walking out of there two pairs of shoes, one pair of pants, a sweater and a belt richer. or something. ahh... well, i can afford it, but i really shouldn't.
on to more important stuff... after actually getting back home, i threw my shit down and headed over to prema's. she is now located conveniently close to me. just about four or five blocks. we sat around BSing and whatnot, when i decided that i needed to go home and nap, if i had any intentions of going out later. when it was time to move my butt, i headed over to alison's and got a ride down there with her super-cute friend chris. i knew what was to follow. and it did. i mean, i love the roxy, and motherfucker is a good event, but i was bored out of my mind. hanging out with alison and chris was the only thing that made it interesting. but i was sober and tired, and quite frakly - people bore me (or maybe it's the crowds that bore me since i love hanging out with my friends in quite places where we can actually talk). so i had a couple of drinks and left the club. i was still too sober to apreciate anything i might have had to drink, but had had enough to get the munchies. argh! naturally, i picked up some crap to eat when i got home. that's when i decided that i am no longer going to be drinking. alcohol is fattening enough in itself. that aside, it makes me wanna EAT. anything i can find, at that. so my conclusions from last night include the following: 1) i'm probably not going to be going to motherfucker again. clubbing is now limited to a couple of events that i still like. 2) i quit drinking. i guess that makes me a straight-edge again. no drinking and no smoking. 3) i will lose this fucking weight i gained two years ago, that people say that can't see. i will make myself not see it either.
music: pantera - five minutes alone mood: waking up
well, i figured it was about time i updated here since i've been too lazy and busy with other nonsense to even remember i had this thing (let alone four or five other blogs). let's see what the interesting stuff has been... for starters (on a general note), my classes are turning out to be pretty cool. one of them (social anthropology of eastern europe) is pretty intense, but not too bad. it's actually very easy to learn from a guy who is as excited about teaching the stuff as my professor is. the only thing is that i find myself writing non-stop for the entire hour and fourty minutes of the class. i guess it remains to be seen how easy or difficult this guy's exams are. my second class (intro to digital media) is a pre-req for the part of the media major i'm actully in school for. the professor is a young, amusing geek, so this should turn out quite well, methinks. not to mention that there are no required texts for the class. i couldn't believe it when i realized that. sweet.
on a more specific note, prema met me on friday, after class and we headed down to the continental for happy hour. rob and co go their a lot, and we were going to have some drinks with them. the drinks are super cheap and we get to be as loud as we want. good times. when things eventually did get a little messy, we saw some of the people off and headed down st marks over to yaffa. yumm. on the way, a drunk dina just had to go into st marks comics cuz she has all of this extra room for toys in her apartment that she has nothing to put in. lol. or not. i'm just a freak, is all. i ended up purchasing a couple of comic books and the caterpillar from alice. now i'm only missing the jabberwalkie. of course, if i get that, i really won't have any room on the shelf, but that's another story. anyway, dinner was consumed with some more alcohol, when we decided that our next stop was american trash (i was too drunk to remember that i told jeff i'd stop by sundown). however, by the time we got up there, i was supposed to go home and drop of my shit, but insteaded just remained at home while prema met up with her roommate at the bar.
yesterday was a seriously lazy day. yes, i'm entitled to those too. all i did was go down town to get my nails done and then take the first avenue bus back uptown. i was in no rush. at about 8pm, i figured i should try to be a little more active. so i headed over to jessica's and got there just as her, her roommate and JD had finished painting their kitchen. then we sat down with some wine and an extremely bizzare movie. it was in spanish and i cannot recall the name at the moment. it was actually pretty good, though. following that, a very drunk dina marched home.
today i shall most likely head into work for a little while and get things done. other than that, i'm actually looking forward to motherfucker tonight. there are a bunch of us that are going and it's going to be at the roxy (yay!) so it should turn out rather well :) we shall see.
Posted by
Dina on 09.05.04 @ 09:59 AM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, September 2nd
6 train woes
music: a perfect circle - crimes mood: full
you know? regardless of how happy i am that i usually really only need to take the train about 2-4 stops (depending on where i'm going), that the 6 is really the only train i take now, and regardless of how frequent the train actually comes (i think it's the most frequent one)... it always seems to be at its absolute fullest capacity. i mean, seriously, there is never any room to breathe, let alone sit down. also, it really never seems to matter what time of day it is either. rush hour or not, it's always the same. sunday morning or thursday after work... same shit every time. on the other hand, i love where i live. i suppose that one thing comes at the expense of the other. too bad it's going to take five million years to complete the 3rd avenue line. or are they even really going to do that? heh.
