last night at QXT's kicked ass =) i saw lots of people i haven't seen in months, had the pleasure of watching some friends get really drunk and danced my ass off. i don't think i've danced that much in just about forever. as a result, today i feel all floppy (yes, floppy =D). i was thinking of going blading, possibly hanging out with friends and some other things, but i can't really bring myself to move my ass anywhere. haha. i think i have to go to the super market, though. we shall see. heh.
Posted by
Dina on 07.31.05 @ 05:50 PM EEST :: [link]
not drinking is working out for me in so many different ways (losing weight, not acting like an asshole, remembering the whole night and spending way less money... wheeee!!). headed over to CBGB's to meet up with crystal for yet another still life decay show. shortly after we got inside, we were joined by kristen. while waiting for the show to start, we were forced to deal with lots of annoying people and a couple of crappy bands. at least there was lots to make fun of =D. anyway, the band rocked (cuz they fucking kick ass), but there were a couple of fucktards that didn't really understand the concept of moshing. they managed to keep the moshpit going for all of five minutes, when people decided they'd rather just watch the show. but these idiots insisted on acting like assholes and running into the people on the sidelines of what seemed to be the area they claimed for themselves. kristen and i were more than happy to punch them every time they got too close. at one point my hand came down on the stupid looking goth boy's face so hard, he seemed to have calmed down after that. but the other one appeared to think he was a ninja and kept on doing all this retarded looking shit. ugh. later we headed over to korova to say hi and hang out for a short while. i think i was home before 2am =)
this is one of the pix crystal took outside of CB's.
...and later, adina and i are actually going to QXT's. hehe. i haven't been there in months! i'm so excited =P
Posted by
Dina on 07.30.05 @ 12:19 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, July 29th
it's all about the material crap =D
music: office noises mood: encouraged
welp, it looks like i was right about the effects of not drinking. though not much, my bathroom scale appears to have stabilized on a lower number than it was on before. granted, my weight usually fluctuates daily, but this seems to be the number my scale favors these days. this obviously makes me feel good about my decision to quit drinking more than the whole 'not feeling like death' thing. heh.
Posted by
Dina on 07.29.05 @ 01:20 PM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, July 28th
could it be?
music: people yapping mood: hopeful
soooooooo ru is doing a little research for me about whether or not there is a black hair dye that can be used on my hair that will not result in any form of allergic reaction. once he has (hopefully) successfully done that, i am going to have him dye my hair for me. there will be no fucking around with my own shit this time since i don't want any undesirable results. i'm pretty psyched about this, i just hope i don't end up disappointed (i.e. that i have no options). as far as eyebrows go, since i can obviously not completely get rid of them, i will be going to get them professionally done so that they are as thin as possible and either lightened so that they are not noticeable or darkened to more or less match my hair. i really need this to work out. i am so sick of looking plain. blond hair is boring. on me, at least.
Posted by
Dina on 07.28.05 @ 01:21 PM EEST :: [link]
Wednesday, July 27th
have faith
music: TV crap mood: determined
so my boss has zero faith in me not drinking. heh. i was saying that i quit and his reaction was 'yea, i've heard you say THAT before'. i had mentioned that it's been a couple of weeks and he laughed. i mean, he does know me very well, and he knows i enjoy drinking. but i don't think he realizes just how significant these couple of weeks really are... that is to say that i don't think he knows just how much i was drinking when i was out to have a good time =D that being said, i'm pretty damn proud of myself for having done it for this long and i'm sure as hell not giving up now. hehe.
oh, and my boss kicks ass! yea, he makes me laugh =)
Posted by
Dina on 07.27.05 @ 06:38 PM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, July 26th
this just in!
music: oomph! - ego mood: content
i have come to the conclusion that i simply love being at home. and considering that i have progressively less desire to go anywhere anyway, this works out perfectly. i love my apartment and i love living alone. it's nice and comfy in here. i have everything i need and i can talk to my friends online all day if i like. heh. too bad i can't work from home... then i'd be the perfect hermit =D
Posted by
Dina on 07.26.05 @ 08:19 PM EEST :: [link]
omg!!
music: office noises mood: itchy =P
itchy! itchy! itchy! must... not... scratch...
Posted by
Dina on 07.26.05 @ 11:27 AM EEST :: [link]
Monday, July 25th
just another brick in the wall
music: that 70's show mood: ::evil::
why is it that i never, EVER remember not to trust my heart to anyone?!?!?! what the fuck is wrong with me??? why do i believe anyone who says nice things to me when i know they don't fully mean what they say?
fuck that.
i'm never trying that again.
i'll be fucking single forever.
good luck to anyone that tries to break down this fucking wall!
Posted by
Dina on 07.25.05 @ 11:33 PM EEST :: [link]
nostalgia
music: silence mood: foo
i wanna dye my hair black and shave my eyebrows again. dammit!
Posted by
Dina on 07.25.05 @ 02:50 PM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, July 24th
die!
music: ASP - she wore shadows mood: sneezy
can someone please tell this cold to die? k, thanks. cold meds are only amusing to an extent. i have to go back to work tomorrow, and i'd rather do that fully coherent. dammit.
Posted by
Dina on 07.24.05 @ 11:19 AM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, July 23rd
better
music: nothing mood: stuffy
so after feeling like shit for a good five hours, adam was an angel and actually came all the way uptown (if you know him, you know this never happens unless the circumstances are extreme) to talk and to make sure i was ok. i obviously wasn't, but when he left i wasn't crying anymore.
goes to show you that one never knows who their real friends are until they really need them =) now that makes me happy!
(and thank you so much to those of you who IMed, emailed or called. it does not go unappreciated =)
Posted by
Dina on 07.23.05 @ 11:35 AM EEST :: [link]
Friday, July 22nd
figures
music: TV crap mood: feh
i guess it's official... my crush doesn't want me. not like this hasn't happened to me 39875098308967873456 times already. i should have seen it coming.
Posted by
Dina on 07.22.05 @ 10:56 PM EEST :: [link]
mmm ink!
music: silence mood: ouchie =)
not only was i uneven before, but my left boob is now officially bigger than my right one. haha! well, at least till the swelling goes down from the 3.5 hour session i just had done on that area =D the work is awesome, though! i do love steve =)
Posted by
Dina on 07.22.05 @ 06:33 PM EEST :: [link]
i wish it wasn't so hot
music: AC noises mood: awake
yesterday was fun. although there was no great adventures for me yesterday (cuz i didn't wanna die standing for hours on lines with no shade in sight), and even though it did involved walking around in the disgusting heat (avoiding the sun, for the most part), i had a good time. was going to meet john and his friends in the city for some shopping. however, that turned into a venture downtown with alison... we had no specific destination. we got down to the st marks area and decided that we needed to eat. yumminess was consumed and we proceeded to go shopping. T&V is always a place i end up spending money i really shouldn't be spending (and it's usually on another pair or dickies - cuz i always need more dickies). i did run into john and crew, but we only said a brief hello and went our separate ways. later we wandered over to apocalypse lounge to see laura, followed by a visit to korova, where we hung out for a while. let me tell you, bar-hopping when all you're drinking is water, can be amusing for many reasons (one being that doing this is completely pointless =P). earlier plans i had were to go out after this, but i ended up going home instead.
so you see, we did nothing spectacular and it was lots of fun anyway =D
this morning i woke up two hours before i had planned to. not sure why. i had some odd dreams concerning things that made no sense (hence 'odd') - perhaps that is the reason... either way, i'm kinda excited cuz i have an appointment with steve today. no, we haven't gotten past the planning part on my star wars project - we're simply going to attempt to finish my chest today! we're going to add flames and windbars to the star i put there last time i went to see him... hooray for ink!!
Posted by
Dina on 07.22.05 @ 08:46 AM EEST :: [link]
Thursday, July 21st
my heart
music: ASP - dancing mood: ehh
so what the hell am i doing, really? waiting for something i'm not sure is even going to happen? am i wasting my time? i mean i have these feelings and i know that they are at least somewhat mutual, but at the same time i also know that it's not fair to ask anything of this person. constantly worrying about if the final decision will be to be with me or possibly something completely different is a hard burden to carry. i mean, i find myself constantly thinking about this person, when i have no way of knowing if the sentiment is the same on the other side...
*sigh*
i just don't know if i should not care and just be pleasantly surprised if i get what i want or if should keep on worrying and then be crushed if i don't.
feh.
Posted by
Dina on 07.21.05 @ 12:12 PM EEST :: [link]
Tuesday, July 19th
w00t!
music: silence mood: buzzed?
contac is my god. it should be yours too! let it be said that it is the mother of all cold meds =D
Posted by
Dina on 07.19.05 @ 10:55 AM EEST :: [link]
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Dina on 07.19.05 @ 10:12 AM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, July 17th
sobriety for the wrong reasons
music: ASP - ich will brennen mood: okie
last night i headed out to see anathema device and still life decay (among other bands) play over at rare. i got there rather early and met up with the lovely kristen. the place was relatively empty, but was soon to fill up for the shows. last night, for the first time, i decided that i am really going to try and quit drinking. yes, i know i've said this before. the only problem with the previous statements is that i wasn't really serious. they were said when i was hung over or after i had done something super stupid (which is also when i learned that i have awesome friends =). however, yesterday was different. see, i know it's not a substance abuse issue... i just like getting retarded when i go out. however, i also realize that the amount that i consume on a weekly basis is probably a large part of why i cannot lose the extra weight i keep bitching about. i don't know for sure that not drinking will change this, but at the moment it is the only thing i can see that could be directly related to this. so last night was one of those nights, during which i watched some of my friends get progressively drunk. i must admit that it is always amusing to watch (though i have rarely been the one watching this =P). however, it also makes one more aware of the fact that people tend to forget themselves and just how much they've had to drink... i was a worrier last night. lol. worried about certain people drinking more than i thought they should. of course, i am really not one to judge since i am regularly the one to drink too much. haha.
either way, i had a wonderful time. lots of good people were out, the bands rocked and so did the DJ. i obviously managed to end the night without misplacing anything, and upon waking up this morning, it was nice not to feel sick to my stomach. LOL.
let's see how long the 'wrong reasons' can maintain my no-alcohol diet.
Posted by
Dina on 07.17.05 @ 12:41 PM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, July 16th
time off
music: asp - weltunter mood: still sleepy
i actually have time off this week...! i haven't had a week off in a while, and i am so in desperate need of a break. i'm not going away anywhere, i'm just going to take it easy for the week. then i have another one off in august, in which i was going to go to germany but it doesn't look like that's happening after all. i don't really mind. once again, i will just really be glad to have the time to myself. even if i don't do much more with it than sit around relaxing. heh.
also, since i'm done with school for the time being, i suddenly have so much more free time after work. i honestly never know what to do with it. i always feel i should do something... not just go home and hang out with no purpose. lol. on that note, yesterday after work i headed down to sandra and peter's house to return the CDs i borrowed (and to get some more =P) and to hang out. their new apartment is so cute and so conveniently located. not going to hang out with her (them) would be entirely too silly. so i stayed for a few hours, talking about whatever nonsense came to mind. then i headed home cuz i was all icky and needed a shower (*g*). shower achieved, i got my ass back out the door and on my way to the bar. met up with crystal and rob for a bit and headed over to sundown. i managed to stay there for about 20 minutes before receiving a call from kristen. she was st the bar. so back i went. lol. we hung out most of the night, drinking and bullshitting (though i'm pretty sure i did most of the bullshitting) till it was almost time for us to be kicked out (how do i manage to stay out so late without noticing?), and headed home.
it was a good night. tonight i shall be going to rare to see anatema device play. i've been promising them i'd come and see them forever, and always manage to flake out. there will be no flaking this time =D
in other news, i got an A in one of my classes. the other professor has not yet given us the grades, but i'm pretty sure it's going to be an A as well. you shall be informed. heh.
Posted by
Dina on 07.16.05 @ 12:01 PM EEST :: [link]
Wednesday, July 13th
today
music: [:sitd:] - rose-colored skies mood: tired
i went through the entire process while awake. that is to say: - i was drunk - then i was feeling sick - then i got a headache - then i was feeling sick again - and now i am finally just tired. lol.
Posted by
Dina on 07.13.05 @ 01:59 PM EEST :: [link]
professional drunk?
music: [:sitd:] - snuff machines mood: heh
yesterday was my only final for the summer. i don't know how i did cuz i didn't really care (yes, i know - a shocker)... but it SHOULD have been ok since it was on material i am familiar with. we shall see. after that i decided that since i no longer have any obligations (well, at least till september) - it was probably for the best to go wander around the village to kill time. once i'd had enough of that, i headed over to meet a certain someone for some food =) he makes me smile. i don't know if this will turn into anything, but i do know that he's a great person and even if it doesn't, he will always be there for me if i should need him. food consumed, we walked around for a bit and then i left to head over to the bar. hung out there for a bit, received a call from my boss - who had a question. he ended the conversation with 'don't drink too much'. LOL. he knows me so well =P later, it was on to three of cups to hang out with crystal. we fucking polished off two bottles of wine (and this was after i had two glasses of the same, back at korova). sat there talking for quite a while and then i headed back to korova for just one more drink. once again i was told i should probably have a bottle of water before i go... my bartenders rock =)
today, although i did get up and out of the house on time, the trains sucked and i got to work a half hour late. foo. let me tell you that i hated everyone on the train today, even more than usual. people looked uglier and were more annoying. perhaps it's cuz i'm still drunk =D
Posted by
Dina on 07.13.05 @ 10:20 AM EEST :: [link]
Monday, July 11th
weekend goodness
music: construction noises mood: tired
BYTE pretty much kicked ass, as was to be expected. lots of good people, lucien's awesome sets, and much alcohol. hell, i can't believe i'm not hung over =P
in other news, the transit system in this city is teh suck. i mean seriously, how do they expect ALL of the people who live on the east side to take buses to work? i truly hate it when i show up at the train station and am informed that it's out of service. what's even worse is when i've actually been waiting for the train when i am informed that it's out of service. nice way to start my week, eh?
Posted by
Dina on 07.11.05 @ 09:47 AM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, July 10th
rollerblading
music: nothing mood: ok
yes, today will be perfect for that. i should be studying, but i can't stop this urge to go out on my blades. it's been far too long.
Posted by
Dina on 07.10.05 @ 11:31 AM EEST :: [link]
Saturday, July 9th
nerve.com
music: AC hum mood: hungry
so we've seen my wonderful luck with nerve.com so far... but this is far too amusing not to mention: even though i have stated on my profile that i am looking for men, i now officially have women hitting on me too.
i feel loved =)
Posted by
Dina on 07.09.05 @ 04:27 PM EEST :: [link]
Friday, July 8th
friday night
music: NCC - seven steps of nervousness mood: calm
tonight, instead of going out, i have decided that staying in and catching up on a whole bunch of crap was a much better idea... my apartment is in desperate need of cleaning, i just borrowed a bunch of CDs that need exploring, and i also have a few netflix movies that need the same. not to mention that it's quite icky outside and all i really want to do is take a shower and crawl into bed only to stare at the television.
yes, that's the plan =)
Posted by
Dina on 07.08.05 @ 10:52 PM EEST :: [link]
Posted by
Dina on 07.05.05 @ 01:20 PM EEST :: [link]
Sunday, July 3rd
ok, so i lied
music: TV crap mood: ok
well, i said i was going to update everything before uploading the new version. but i didn't. i still have to rewrite my bio and the site history, among other things. i was just so sick of looking at the old version, and it had so much extra stuff in it that was irrelevant. so i suppose that the current files will be updated when i get unlazy again. of course i might also get sick of this layout again soon, but who can say?
Posted by
Dina on 07.03.05 @ 01:01 PM EEST :: [link]
it's a celebration, bitches!
music: AC hum mood: sleepy
so far it's been the best birthday weekend that i can remember =) nothing too extravagant, but they usually turn out so crappy, that almost anything else is something for mt to be grateful for. friday night pretty much kicked ass. i didn't drink as much as i planned to or even as much as i normally do on fridays. somewhere towards the end, i was just hanging out, enjoying my friends' company. seriously, thank you so much - all of you who came down... especially those who are not regulars at the bar. i means a lot =) after i abandoned the bar in favor of my apartment, i was summoned by a friend in need. went to hang out with said friend to to talk and to make sure everything was ok. it was =) spent most of yesterday just being lazy and lying around, doing homework, and finally getting together with someone for a movie, which i fell a sleep in the middle of (didn't go as far as the theater, so falling asleep in front of my television wasn't such a tragedy =P) today, i seem to be up rather early. i suppose it's ok since i have to get ready for a photoshoot with seth and sandra up in the cloisters. should be good times. as for tomorrow (my actual birthday), i don't have anything planned yet, but i do think i might just end up going to sandra and pete's bbq. i have yet to visit their new apartment and i really just haven't seen either one of them in a while (though i am going to see sandra today. lol).
Posted by
Dina on 07.03.05 @ 10:44 AM EEST :: [link]
