in other news, last night i went out to the same event i've been going to for the past three weeks. i have to admit that i rather enjoy going there. even though last night they were in a different venue, it was just as much fun.
once i get past the fact that the only interesting people that go there are the ones i come with or the few that i know (cuz the rest are 16 year-olds. more or less), i really enjoy the opportunity to just be out dancing. last night i even heard something new (well, new for me) that i liked. i'm in the middle of downloading as much of it as i can =D
back and forth - back and forth... that's all it ever is. i feel like a fucking ping-pong ball. i think it's time for me to step away from the table and find a new game to play. with new competitors.
managed to sleep most of the day. this is good cuz i really didn't have the urge to go outside into the extreme heat. i think it reached about 37c/99f today. and it's not even really summer yet. oh joy.
i should do the dishes and take a shower, but i'm obviously just too lazy.
trying to figure out what i should wear tonight. is it possible that with the giant amount of clothing i have in my closet, i still can't find something i'm in the mood to wear (that i didn't wear last week)? i guess i am a girl after all, huh?
this morning i discovered that my boiler doesn't work. again. only this time i don't think it's the boiler itself, but rather the electricity that is supposed to turn it on. this morning i got up to do just that, when i was unable to flip the switch in the correct direction.
i had to wash myself with water from the sink since no matter how hot it gets, i still can't bring myself to actually taking a cold shower.
nice for this to happen right in the middle of the heatwave we're having, hmm?
oh yea, and the post office wasn't open this morning cuz they're on strike so i can't pay my school loan and the fucking bank isn't picking up the phone when i have to do something important for work that is required for the entire company to get paid this month!!
i think i'm going to hide somewhere today before a building falls on me.
i really have to start updating and checking my google calendar on a daily basis...
lately, i've been writing appointments down on small pieces of paper and keeping them in my wallet. only relying on my memory to tell me that there is something i need to be doing. and since i no longer carry a paper calendar with me and i don't have something to reference - i keep on thinking that the google thing is the best idea. i've actually thought that for quite some time, but for some reason - unlike myspace and livejournal, which i look through constantly, i can't remember to check my google account.
after having planned (for days) that i was going to see dik at work today (tuesday evening), i ended up falling asleep at about 10:30pm. big surprise? i think not, considering who i've been in the last few years... i was woken up by my phone. it rang a few times before i realized that it was actually ringing. i had woken up after dik had already left her message. at first i called back (with no response) and sent an sms asking her to call and tell me if she was still at work. but after lying in bed for about ten minutes, i decided that the best policy was to get up and go even without a phone call. after all, it's about a five minute walk from here. if she wasn't there any longer, i'd just come home. but she was. we sat down for a drink. and then we headed up in my direction for pizza. on the way, we stopped in at the cheers (a bar i don't really usually like cuz of the amount of smoke that fills the place) to say hi to the bartender and ended up staying for another drink. we were then joined by idan (dik's boyfriend), had a few laughs and headed outside for pizza. good times.
then it was time to go home.
so here i am at 4:30am, thinking that i have about two and a half hours to sleep before having to make my way to yet another doctor's appointment. but instead of making an attempt at sleep, i'm sitting here listening to music i haven't heard in ages and typing this silly entry.
a friend called to see if i wanted to join her for something else, but i was actually quite good with not doing anything since by 21:30 i was feeling kinda tired. no good reason for it, either. hehe.
anyway, tonight looks a little more definite and a little less unknown.
it's nice to finally have my medical insurance back. i can't believe i had to wait ten months. oh well. either way, i was able to get blood drawn and my boob poked within two hours from one another. pretty productive, methinks. now i just have to wait a week to see if i'm dying of anything (j/k) =D
oh, and i no longer need to hold my stomach in. it's flat again! this feels really good =)
yes. it's actually been two weeks since i started watching what i consume. and i can't believe it myself, but i haven't cheated. not even once. i've managed to lose three and a half kilo and i'm pretty sure the rest of it will come off if i keep this up.
it's not just about the weight loss. it's also about healthy eating habits, which i hope will stick once i'm down to my goal weight (54k/119lb).
i had a really long update. with details. about what i did today etc. the boring kind, you know... but after a phone conversation i just had a with a friend (yes, at 3am), i am no longer in the mood to give details.
i will just say that i managed to actually move my ass and get out of my apartment this evening. and that i am currently mastering the art of learning how to know when i've had just enough to drink. it actually feels really good to know where my limits are =)
last night was good. i managed to drag a couple of friends to the zamir. since i had been there the week before and had a rather decent time, i had wanted to go again last night. turns out that it was a good choice. for all three of us. for me, there was very little drinking and a lot of dancing involved.
while i did manage to get up today and go have a late lunch with someone who couldn't make it last night, i have to say that i'm in no shape to do anything else. my intentions were to go hang out and listen to a friend dj, but i fell asleep a few hours ago and now all i feel is the result of much head-banging from last night.
not only is my neck stiff, but i am completely exhausted. as though i had spent the entire day at the beach or something.
i guess it's not too late to still get my ass moving, but i think that at this point i'd much rather just sit in front of the tv, where i have what to support my neck with. lol.
music: nothing mood: yes, i'm actually still tired
woke up this morning to call the laundormat. i wanted them to deliver my laundry today. once i managed to do that, instead of going back to sleep, i got up and tidied up the apartment a little. although i was contemplating going out shopping or just to wander around, i did actually end up falling asleep again. only to be woken up by chen asking me to come have coffee with him. so i jumped out of bed, got ready and flew out the door.
upon return, i was extremely tired. again. however, instead of just crashing, i ended up doing more cleaning (how the hell is there so much to clean in this tiny apartment?!). when i finally made it upstairs, i found a few messages from people on messenger, i started getting a bunch of SMSs and found myself making plans for the evening.
i'm not in the mood to give details. i will just say that being completely sober last night allowed me to see things that i do not normally pay too much attention to, a lot clearer. ahh... it's times like these in which i'm so glad that i am who i am and i don't even understand why i get so upset about little things like being single.
life is good and and it exists purely for my entertainment.
last night i had dinner with dikla at moon. it's an awesome sushi place that i, for some reason, hardly ever go to. i usually end up eating or ordering from my current favorite, sakura. anyway, it was my birthday gift to her, as she has just celebrated it and i seriously suck at buying presents. after that, she came to hang out for a bit before going home to crash. all in all a very good evening.
this girl used to be one of my best friends, but i suppose that seven years in different countries can cause people to grow apart. at least somewhat. so i'm glad, that although we both seem to be endlessly busy, we do get to see each other occasionally =)
other than that, i believe i'm on the eleventh day of my diet. i haven't lost any more weight aside from the initial two kilo, but i have to admit that i feel a lot better. i mean, while my target is to actually lose this weight, the feeling i get from only ingesting healthy food is a good side-effect. that, coupled with the fact that i have recently decided to give up drinking until further notice - really makes me feel confident that my mission will be a success (well that, and the fact that i haven't managed to stick to a diet for this long in years, so this is obviously progress) =D
tonight will be the usual nonsense. minus the alcohol, obviously. i haven't done the 'sober thing' in a few years now. should be interesting. lol.
depression aside, i guess i'm ok. i suppose the way i feel about the previous entry really depends on my current mood. today it's acceptable.
since i was supposed to start late today, i actually got stuff done... i had two doctors' appointments in the morning, sent my laundry in and cleaned the apartment a little. not only that, but i've only been at work for a little over an hour and i'm already caught up on everything that was left over from yesterday.
i guess it's going to be a long day in the office. heh.
1. a mosquito ate my left leg the other night. thankfully it didn't keep me awake, but now i look like a leper. i find it rather amusing that today is the day i chose to wear a skirt that does not reach me to my toes.
2. i finally have my medical coverage back! after ten months of waiting (i had private insurance that was worth crap), i can now see my regular doctors and not have to pay a billion dollars =D
3. if you look around here, you'll find i actually did some updates. on a couple of pages, i took down the long stories i had up and replaced them with short summaries that are more adjusted to who i am now, rather than who i was when i originally put the site together in 2000. i'd say it's about time...
music: bus going by outside mood: somewhere between tired and awake
not sure why i woke up at 6am this morning. it's not like i fell asleep super early or anything. regardless, i haven't been able to fall back asleep. oh well.
i guess i'll be picking up the book i've been reading, before it's time to get ready for work...
in other news, i'm on day eight of my so-called diet. i'm still doing well but i think it's more of a feeling than anything else. i mean, my scale says i've lost two kilo and my pants are fitting better. but it's nothing drastic. if i manage to lose four more, i'll be perfectly happy with my weight. happier than i've been about it in a long time.
i have to say that i had a seriously good time last night at the sub. i never really noticed it, but i actually do love that place. it was a combination of good times and strange meetings. i was out dancing until 5:30am and then walked home with chen. 6am was when i got into bed and i just woke up about twenty minutes ago. i'm still tired.
my body hurts, i've lost my voice and i generally feel like jello... but just let me do it all over again next week, and i'll be a happy dina =)
.: i really wish i wasn't allergic to hair dye .: have removed 6g stretchings from both lobes .: on a diet; losing the weight i want is actually working .: will be 32 in three weeks .: would like to go back to amsterdam for a while .: still too lazy to post pix from spain/gibraltar
i don't remember the last time i was quite this busy at work. and that doesn't even include something i was supposed to do for the oracle program today.
good thing, though, cuz i'm pretty much running on two hours of sleep. if i wasn't this busy, i'd be falling asleep at my desk. i have a feeling that the minute i get home this evening i'm going to crash.
i got here on friday and immediately explored the top of the rock. saw the monkeys and the seagulls. got a quick tour of the center of town and managed to sit down for some food.
saturday - sigal, aya and i prepared to make our way to seville. we got up early, crossed the border into spain to get our rental car, and made our way there. it didn't take long.
seville is beautiful. we walked around a lot in the extreme heat, saw the cathedral and the tower and plaza de espana. then we crashed at some hotel that we got a room at. sunday was more walking around. we got to see the museum of fine art. and after some food, it was time to head back.
since monday, i've been sleeping at a hotel and spending most of my day training on oracle. last night i actually went out for drinks with patricia; one of the HR people here in gib. our trainers are amusing (i have pictures to prove it) and very nice. this evening we are supposed to head out to see dolphins on the straits and then go out for dinner.
the clouds here move very fast. almost like in time-lapse photography. and the sun goes down at about 9:30pm. all in all, it's a very beautiful place. but i can't wait to be home. i am looking forward to tomorrow at 7:30pm, when i will finally be on my way back.